Acceptance in Spirit, Not Feelings
The pains you have in your bones and nerves are precious drops from the loving chalice of Jesus. Humble yourself in your pains and make little of them without thinking too much about them and without looking at them (so to speak) in the face.
Do this with the higher part of your spirit. On the feeling level, you won’t be able to do it, but remain on the Cross as a victim of love with Jesus.